Feeling Like You’re Losing It? Why Spiritual Awakenings Are Messy Before They’re Magical
If you’re seeing signs, sensing energy, questioning everything, and feeling like you don’t belong anymore, you’re not broken. You’re awakening, and it’s more sacred than you realize.
When Awakening Feels Like Losing Your Mind
Not everyone’s spiritual awakening is peaceful.
In fact, mine was anything and everything but calm.
I wish I could tell you it was soft, filled with angel songs and glowing light…
But the truth? It felt more like everything I thought I knew crumbled beneath me — and I was left standing in the ruins, trying to figure everything out on my own.
For some, awakening comes gently — a slow unfolding, like a flower opening to the morning sun. But for many of us — especially deeply feeling, intuitive souls — it arrives like a storm.
Messy. Raw. Unrelenting. And at the same time… deeply sacred.
What Awakening Felt Like for Me
At first, it felt like I was living in a horror movie. Things started happening that I couldn’t explain. Things I couldn’t put words or meaning to.
Many nights, after putting my son to bed, I would sit outside crying — terrified I was losing my mind.
The thing is, the signs had always been there…
As a child, I had an imaginary friend — Leo the Lion — who would visit and talk to me when no one else could understand. I had visions of events before they happened.
I still remember one vividly — I was about nine years old, sitting at a demolition derby with my mom. I told her a specific car was going to catch fire. She brushed it off, laughing it off as just part of the event. But when the flames shot out from under that car…
She still dismissed it.
Growing up, I learned to deny these gifts.
To block them out.
I just wanted to fit in.
To be normal.
And for a while, it worked — mostly.
The visions became soft, the disturbances subtle.
I told myself it was just my imagination.
But when my awakening hit — it all came rushing back.
The Shifts I Couldn’t Ignore
- Conversations that once excited me left me feeling hollow.
- Places I used to love suddenly made me anxious, especially crowded spaces like elevators.
- I could feel the energy of a room before a word was even spoken — sometimes so heavy it drained me within minutes.
- I started knowing things without understanding how.
- I realized there was “more” behind everything — layers of meaning I had never noticed before.
Nothing made logical sense.
But I craved answers.
I needed to make sense of it all just to survive it.
I found myself Googling vague things at 2 AM:
“Why am I feeling things no one else feels?”
“Why does the world feel louder, heavier, brighter all at once?”
“Is this normal?”
There were days I questioned everything.
Days I wondered if I would ever feel “normal” again.
Days I felt completely, heartbreakingly alone.
The Lifeline I Found
In one of those 2 AM spirals, I stumbled across a Facebook group that caught my eye.
I reached out to the admin after watching for a few weeks — poked his brain a bit — and finally asked if he mentored.
That conversation changed everything.
Through his guidance, I learned that everything opening up inside me had a name.
The clairvoyant visions.
The sensitivity.
The “imaginary” guide I had as a child.
The whispers.
The energy I could feel — and unintentionally heal.
I wasn’t broken.
I wasn’t crazy.
I was awakening.
He taught me how to trust my gifts, how to work with my energy, and most importantly — how to accept the parts of myself I had spent so many years trying to deny.
The Things You Might Start Noticing Too
If you’re in the messy middle of awakening — or even just brushing up against it — you might recognize these signs:
- The emotional waves hit harder — grief, joy, nostalgia… sometimes all in the same day.
- You sense energy everywhere — in people, nature, and even silent spaces.
- You crave solitude — not because you’re broken, but because your soul needs room to breathe.
- You start seeing “signs” — repeating numbers, dreams, animal messengers, songs that seem to carry hidden messages.
- You question everything — your relationships, your path, the very fabric of your life.
- “Normal” doesn’t feel normal anymore — surface living feels unbearable.
- And maybe the hardest part: you wonder if anyone will believe you.
What I Want You to Know
You’re not crazy.
You’re not broken.
You’re not imagining it.
You are awakening.
You are remembering.
Whether your awakening feels soft or chaotic, peaceful or overwhelming…
It’s real.
It’s sacred.
And you are not alone.
Every whisper.
Every sign.
Every moment you thought you were losing your mind — was actually a moment your soul was stepping back into its light.
If you’re standing in the messy middle — if your heart is aching for clarity, support, and a space where you can be fully understood — you don’t have to walk this path alone.
This sacred space was created for souls like yours.
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Let’s walk this remembering home — together.
